EXERCISE FRENZY.

Well its 2 in the morning and I'm supposed to sleep. So after this post I'll probably really go to sleep. I'm like... damn tired. lol.

Yesterday I went to the stadium to run with Miaode, because it has been quite some time since I ran 2.4km (or clique; NS terms) WITH TIMING, and I did certain bad mistakes that made me activate THE GAG REFLEX (i stopped immediately after finishing the run, bad idea). It's funny how the reflex term came about because yesterday while on my way to the stadium I was listening to AM MAYHEM (good morning show from 987fm, the only show where I really enjoyed listening to in 987fm) and Ms Vendetta was talking about how her gag reflex was activated whenever she sees Mr Young (for those who listens to AM MAYHEM will know who they are). Anyway out of topic, I managed to run 2.4 with timing recorded and guess what,

IT'S 12 MINS PLUS. BETTER THAN MY NAPHA TEST THAT I TOOK IN NP where the time was 15 or 16 mins long (see the effects of poly life, somemore I'm not in swimming team anymore).

Ok yeah I know it's sort of still a fail, but it is definitely an improvement compared to half a year ago. Meanwhile I'll just continue to train and run and probably lose another 3kg or so (I just lost around 3kg and I can feel it) and then tone up my body more. ONWARD DERREL.

Time to go for a swim later today.

I'm Back WITH ALOT OF RANTS???

Maybe not for good. lol. But I suddenly have the urge to blog, so...

Guess what, I finally graduated from NP. It's like, how am I even supposed to feel? For one thing, I feel really great, but at the same time, I am going to miss school life (but seriously what the **** has FSV done to me sometimes I wonder; I learnt alot of things though). In fact for the pass 2 months I have been wondering what will happen after the 2 years of NS, will I be working? Or studying? Where will I go in the near future? I got a letter saying I'll be in NS in sept. And now it's July. 2 more fracking months to go. I'm kinda sianed by the fact nothing much is happening in my life (except for work). I have so much things that I wanna do with friends around me, yet I can't enjoy those things because most people around me are not really interested in it or simply they appear to be lazy (partially may be due to the NS rotting syndrome and other obligations). I have a few choices that I wanna choose from. Today I was listening to some music and it suddenly struck on me that, Derrel, YOU LOVE MUSIC. One reason I joined FSV is to learn about sound engineering and production. However, I was given a screwed up chance which was kinda costly (The Label) and I was very lucky that during the last semester of my school life I managed to get into Music For Picture module. I guess that was probably one of the most fun and engaging module that I have ever taken in the course (along with scriptwriting and audio tech). And all of a sudden I was like, DUDE YOU NEED MAKE A CHOICE. DO YOU WANNA GO NIE OR DO MUSIC PRODUCTION?

I like both, I really do. But I have to choose one, I can't do both at the same time, and I need to make a decision fast in order to move on from there. Damn am I ranting? lol. I love to solve maths (other subjects too actually, not only maths), it gives me a great sense of satisfaction. I love to interact with students during relief teaching, because I enjoy interacting with people, and the satisfaction I gained when they can solve the problems after I teach them, is priceless. BUT, making music is fun too! And I'm talking about singer/songwriter type of music. Predominantly pop culture music. Granted, most music nowadays have a wierd sense of pointless appeal (especially RnB and hip hop/rap), but there are really good musicians out there that are RAW, TRUE TO THE BONE, and BRILLIANT (and I think they all have a common style: mainly rock). I have been listening to alot of such music nowdays, artists such as John Mayor, Rob Thomas, The Fray, Michelle Branch etc etc and I pay close attention to the arrangement and lyrical content of the music, like what kind of instruments or roughly the kind of mixing treatment that goes into the song. I could have learnt some of these in detail during The Label project in school, but somehow the whole thing just kinda screwed up (six music videos? ok, but I WANNA DO MUSIC TOO?!?!) in a very unfortunate way where I don't even know how to explain.

Besides, I am looking for someone to teach me how to play the guitar properly currently. I think the guitar is one of the most brilliant instruments ever made in history; the sound is just awesome. Clear, mellow and crisp. (BUT I LOVE THE POWERHOUSE SOUND OF AN ELECTRIC GUITAR TOO. MUAHAHAHAHA. gotta learn an acoustic guitar first at least, isn't that better?) If I ever learn fully how to play the guitar well, i'll probably start composing and write some tunes about anything that comes to my mind. Currently I'm using garageband to do some simple audio recording and mixing, but its really lame because I rather use Logic Pro to do audio recording and mixing. BUT DAMN I DON'T HAVE much professional equipments to go along with. Anyway, enough about all these rants. It just happened that I feel the need to blog it out. So in conclusion...

I have so many things I wanna do, but yet no one really shares the same interests as me to get me really motivated. Probably due to the fact I don't like to do things alone. I'm addicted to people. lol.

After blogging out this post I felt I've known my self better. At least everything typed here is real, not masked. No fake bullshit, no lies.